in memory of friends i made and lost, and the friends i didn't get a chance to make yet lost them.

Reason

Every once in a while something happens, something that shakes you up from inside, that moves your entire life around, something that makes you want to run, scream, fall, do something. Not just do anything - but something that is worth this life you are leading.

It may not happen to you, it could happen to someone you knew, or someone around you or may be even someone you didn’t know at all.   It revives your worst fears, your uncertainties, teases your emotions, urges you, begs you, manipulates you. 

A similar incident moved me to start this blog. Death. Of a dear one, and then of an acquaintance, and then of a random person at a friend’s collage, and then of an innocent baby somewhere in my country – repeatedly telecasted on the news channels….  Too many deaths, too many losses, for me to keep calm and hold myself together.

As I wept, silently, praying for their well-being in the hereafter, I "re-realised" that this life is too short to procrastinate; it’s here today, gone tomorrow.

How many of us live to see the days we dream of, how many of us live to fulfil the promises we made, what is the guarantee that something I want to do, I will be here tomorrow to do it?? So many that we know of move on into another world without living up to their dreams, barely experiencing life, and that is what upsets me most. All I wanted to know was why did they go so early? Did our prayers fall short? Did no one pay attention to them? Did anyone bother to fulfill their dreams? Didn’t they have any dreams? Life should have been fair enough to at least give them a chance to live their desires. It feels almost guilty to be alive when kids younger than you pass away. 

Weep not, Death is the just another journey, my mother tells me.

But it’s not this journey; you don’t live it like you live here. I weep some more.

All I want is to be someone before I die, I don’t want to live, and leave, without ever attempting to fulfill my dreams. And all I dream of is to be a good friend, a good companion, a good person who has made some tiny difference in this big bad world. Well mostly anyways.

With this, I hope to allow you a peek into my mind while I muse about life as I know it.

Don’t judge me, just walk with me and you will find a good companion, 

and I hope your time here will be well – spent.

Welcome to my head and my heart.